ALSGHKS, only wind

Treading.

2009-02-02T10:24:42Z

Today, marks the beginning of a new era! :) I would be all wordy and such, but with dad on the phone, speaking in Hakka, I'm bound to confuse myself. :( And I'll most likely make my sentences quite FOB-like. >< Ugh. I really wish I had more space to just do my thing. >< I was doing my Biology homework until Aunty called. >< I don't know her name- and besides, I don't address her as that, anyways... WOW, I think I'm going to get a headache. :( He talks so loud. T_T I feel doomed. :( Hahah, I just want to do homework; study hard and do well. I really think I can do it. :D Without noise blaring in the background... I can't seem to work in any condition but quiet. o_o BLARING QUIETNESS. T_T Oh, how much I pity myself. -_-

Moving onto bigger and better things...
I shall try to keep this as short as my last entry!
The key word is "TRY." Keep trying and one day you'll succeed. ^^

My timetable for the DAY ONE was: BIOLOGY, ENGLISH, LITERATURE AND MEDIA. Period one was cast aside for administration issues. The new sub-school leader welcomed us back- as well as introduced us to the new staff. We have a lot of new teachers. ._. One of them being my form teacher- who has taught for twenty years- and is also married to Mr. Angos! I can't give you a name, though. >< 'Cause I'm not sure how to say OR spell it. I'll ask her again, tomorrow, in form. :) She kept her maiden name.

My teachers for my five special subjects this year:
BIOLOGY: Mr. Frowe
CHEMISTRY: ???
ENGLISH: Mr. Angos
LITERATURE: Mr. Hollingworth
MEDIA: Mr. Isma

Special Year 12 mentions of today:
Pooja, by Mr. Angos
David, by Mr. Angos
Shaun, by Mr. Angos
SUZANNE, by Mr. Angos AND Mr. Hollingworth (although he did it anonymously)

Unexpected visit by Mariana. :D Sooey laughed at her because she said she'd keep in contact with me through FaceBook. ^^ He's just jealous. :P You keep up with all your Summer School kids, there! So, hush you nutter. ;) Hehehe.

I spent a lot of the day with Sooey! :D To substitute for his brother, perhaps? HAHA. -_- You never know. :P ACTUALLY, my locker is SOOO close to where Soochong's was. It's like :O :O ! Actually, it used to be Pooja's. I HOPE THAT THAT LOCKER HAS SOME KIND OF AURA, OR SOMETHING. 'CAUSE POOJA IS SO HARD-WORKING- so Mr. Angos tells us. xD Yes, Mr. Angos talked about her a lot. xD

I'm not really sure what to say. xD I've relayed a lot of my day to Soochong, already... So it feels kind of silly to be repeating it all, and to such detail. xD Much love to BENNY! Who looks HOT in navy. ;) Hehe, everyone's looking dashing. ;) Hmmm, many hugs, today! Many people! For the most part- it seemed like people were happy to be back... Or maybe it was just my optimism reflecting in their eyes. xD HEHE!

Many people noticed my dyed hair. :) Hahah, all good, all good! I love the colour it used to be... It's faded, now. >< EEK. I don't know if mum'll let me dye it, again... I'll just show her I'll work my butt off in Year 12... But also have a nice hair colour to match. Shane says I'm racist, 'cause I didn't leave my hair black. Hahaha, idiot. -_- He's still the same; after six weeks. :)

YAY, GOT TO SEE HEAPS OF PEOPLE! Gave Dandan a beeeg hug! Ryan, too! And Walsh, at the end of the day. :) Tingting specifically asked to see me. HAHA, poor Ben. -_- Tingting always wants to see me; it's never "I miss Ben." It's always "I miss Cyndi." HAHA, I bet Soochong's like that, too. :P Hehehe. xD

All in all, it's been a great day! :) :) I feel so pumped. :D I hope this feeling lasts. ^^ People will probably question as to why I'm even on the internet! ... I'll learn to find a balance... And for the most part- I just hope to drop by little snippets. I really don't want to forget this year. I'll write as much as I can. :D :D

Today.

2009-01-28T12:10:41Z

It all changes.
I wish you all the best, Oh Wonbin.
I am going crazy.

I have a Christmas ornament that hangs off my bag.
It has five bells.
I lost one, last night.
I said to Sue, "it's like losing a member of a boyband."

Well, you know what?
I want that bell back.

But I can't find it. ><
I have no idea where to look.

I just hope that it's okay. ._.

Some funny symbol of my fangirlism. ._.
I'm going mad. I really am going mad.

Since the 21st of March, 2007. I have been mad.

Proportioned.

2009-01-24T05:30:49Z

I do not understand why, but my rich text formatting is not appearing! Oh, woe! I have come to the decision that I shall only blog every third day- due to my fondness of multiples of three! It's an odd decision to come to- but it will be for the better, as I still have my calendar to remind me of my day-to-day events. :) Not that any of you see it, though. :/ I'll keep you guys as updated as I can! And I will make time for a chat over a cup of tea, as well. :)

If you haven't noticed- I think "Washington Square," by Henry James, has played with my mind! I don't know why- everytime I read a book, I go all crazy nuts and try and adapt to the world that they live in. After reading "The Catcher In The Rye," I was talking like Holden Caulfield! My golly gosh- what do I do. xD I had no idea my speech was so easily influenced. I think I'd like to read more books like this- to develop my oh so ever dwindling vocabulary. D:

The texts that we study in English are decent. I hate the swearing, but the stories always capture me. They're easier to relate to. The texts we study in Literature seem to cover more of what's out there and I just love the different worlds I'm exposed to whilst reading/studying! It thrills me, so. :)

Funny thing is- every time I've tried to read "Washington Square," I've fallen asleep after two chapters or less! >< I have no idea why it took me so long to get through it. I didn't find it boring. I was actually quite interested and I perhaps wondered what was so charming about this Morris Townsend. >< When I originally started reading- I imagined him as DENNIS O'NEIL. :x What a horribly fangirl-like thing to do. -_-

Overall, I guess I enjoyed "Washington Square." I can't say it completely won me over. The lifestyle interests me; and the language always keeps me drawn in- although, they can get so wordy sometimes, I start skimming. >< It's horrible to do- but once I actually have to study the text, I'm sure I'll read it more throughly! I just wanted to know what happened, in the end, so I kept pushing myself to read! ><

I've managed to get Soochong a little interested, also! Which I find quite amazing, seeing as he hated "Pride and Prejudice..." Or more like, he was being an idiot when he read it. -_- Whatever the case- I shall lend him my copy and he shall read it, like a man! Yeuh! xD

Since my last update, not much has happened that is worth blogging. Life changing things, perhaps, but there are other things to be thought of, first. And I will be conscious of it all. :) School is priority, though! Let's try and get over 86.5, was it? I CAN DO THAT, RIGHT? :D :D

I've been looking into the kind of courses I'd be interested in undertaking in university. Sue's given me a couple of ideas, and Soochong's thrown in some, also. I guess, I'm really starting to get a picture of what I'd like to be, in the future. ^^ I'm not sure- yet, but it seems like it's really coming together and I'm pretty happy about it! Wendy advises for me to talk to Pala about it all, and well- it'll work from there! Until then- I'll just be happy with the dreams. ^^

Tomorrow, I will hopefully be seeing many of my friends at the Springvale New Year's Festival! I believe I'll be taking the bus with Benny- maybe my parents might even be able to drop us off! It all sounds pretty delightful and I'm pretty excited. I'm feeling kind of guilty, but... My conscience doesn't feel clear, but it'll be a good day, tomorrow. I miss Benny! I miss Charmaine! I miss Leenah! And I'll be able to see them tomorrow! I'm so excited. ^^ I can't wait to give Benny his puzzle. :D :D

School will be starting soon. I'll get to see everyone, again. :D Tuesday will be the last time I'm going out, unless something happens for Daniel or Charmaine's birthdays... WHICH I HOPE SOMETHING DOES. T_T I was thinking of organising something- but if they have a joint party, would someone kill me? -_- I'd been meaning to organise something with Dan, but I haven't talked to him for a few days. D: I guess- SEE WHAT HAPPENS! There's still much to be done. D:

Stepping Up.

2009-01-21T01:00:17Z

First of all- HAPPY 22 MONTHS! :) Hehe, I think Hyun and Yeon will know what I'm going on about. :) I can't believe it's been so long, already! >< Sure, I've been unfaithful- 'cause eh hem, Soochong came along, but YEAH! :) 22 months. That's surely something to be proud of. :D Hehe. ^^ Happy 22 Months. xD Ahh... I remember when I used to spazz to Benny, every 21st. xD He just knows how nuts I am. xD That guy- knows me well. He sure does. :D :D

There's been a lot to do, as of late. And HAHA, I have so much to tell Maggie, it's not funny. T_T I can't wait to see her in person, 'cause my fingers can't type fast enough, and DAMN, it's just not the same over MSN. There's some people in which, it's SOOO much better to talk with them in person... Maggie is one of those people for me. >< We used to be on MSN ALL the time! I have no idea how we always managed to find the time. NOW, THOUGH. It's over, MSN. >:( You and I are DONE! HAHA.

Mostly, now-a-days, it's SYN that's been bothering me. It's really not as fun without Maggie- however, that doesn't go to say that hosting with Jessie isn't fun! I even hosted with Michael, last night. o_o I've hosted with an array of different people this summer- but none can replace Maguu. D: It's always going to be MC. I miss you.

Things just keep piling up! Things need to be DONE!

Yesterday was a really awesome day, but! Soochong and I took Sooli out and we had a ball. :) Sooli's always pumped up with energy- and I started "lagging" behind when I got too full. My gosh- Soochong is like a hippo. He just eats and eats and eats. I'm not even sure if Sooli felt as full as I did, and I'm starting to think he ate more. I have NOO idea. But Sooli challenged me to finish a super sized slurpee within an hour. xD Hahah, I took up that challenge, even though I drink really slow! We forgot about it, anyways, and ended up chucking it out. -_-

Yeah. :) I really liked yesterday. I spent the full day with Soochong, seeing Sooli and Soothang, also! I also got to meet Honchun. :) Actually, I met him last week, but I didn't really get a proper introduction... Soochong still failed this week. xD I talked to Honchun before he introduced me! Or well, I told Honchun off. xD Hahah, he just laughs, though. He seems really friendly. :)

I'm so incoherant, today. xD It just feels like so much has been happening, lately, and I just don't find the time to blog it. Furthermore, my time on the internet has been dwindling. I haven't really been replying any comments- and I haven't even tagged the last few posts! I really need to hop to it. xD Speaking of which, I'll be going, now! xD I'll catch you with you all in a little while. :)

Out of Reach.

2009-01-19T08:37:13Z

Okay, talk about depressing! T_T I haven't watched Home and Away in the longest of times... I had expected to watch How I Met Your Mother, but Home and Away's alright, too! JUST HEAPS MORE DEPRESSING AND HEART-WRENCHING! HECK! One of my favourite characters... T_T ARGH! WHY! WHY WHY! This just drives me nuts on the inside and out. D: I don't even know why everything is happening, 'cause I didn't watch the end of the last season. Mum and dad NEVER watch anymore, since they had satellite... BUT, ZOMG. >< WHY THE HECK. >< I knew he was never as charming as he looked! ARGH. FDJNBJKVA. I can't believe I'm ranting about this. T_T I just feel so dkvn dskjva about it all. But for some crazy reason, even when I blog about it- I don't want to throw any names in case I spoil it for someone... HAHA, I'm such a dork, who the heck am I going to spoil it for? xD I should just say... But I can't bring myself to. T_T It's really depressing.

I don't know. ><

Scurry!

2009-01-19T03:53:55Z

Alright, so I've given myself another half hour to update, HOWEVER, because Wendy's computer has been lagging to the maximum- I only have about 20 minutes to go. -_- Hahah, ALRIGHT! So, in the one and a half hours that I've been gone- I ironed clothes, folded clothes, ate (again) and washed dishes (again)! Oh, and I boiled water. But, man- it's amazing how I can do so little in so much time. -_- Hahah, it's no wonder mum is always raving about having to do house-work, all day! Now it's my job. xD I'm sure there's more I could have done- there always is... But after this, I'm going to get straight into homework...

SPEAKING OF WHICH, does anyone know when school OFFICIALLY begins? On all the fridge-magnet calendars, it says the 28th... But, as far as I know, we start on the 2nd? Or else why would Maggie be coming back in February? And, I'm pretty sure on Helena and Thanh's blogs- they said we started on the 2nd. Now, the only reason why I initially thought we started on the 2nd, was because on my leadership calendar- it plans out our first meetings and it yeah- says we start on the 2nd. ZOMG, I'M TIRED OF SAYING THE 2ND. -_- Whatever the case- WHEN DO WE START?!?! ._.

I feel so unorganised, but I'm majorly confused and I don't want to be unprepared for the 28th, nor do I want to miss out on 3 days of school... HOWEVER, IF WE START ON THE 2ND, all will be well and I'll be a very happy chappy! ^__^ I'm just kind of worried, at the moment, and I'm starting to wonder why I didn't question anyone, earlier. -_- Hahah, silly duffer!

Last night, I got stuck into playing games on iminlikewithyou.com, since Benny linked me! :D Soozhong and I were versing in Jigsawce and Dinglepop and MAN! I started to get really competitive, and he's like, "amazing... And you said I was competitive." -_- HAHA. I don't know. :( I guess I am pretty competitive... I have no idea, anymore. It's probably some inner egotistical thing. JAEJIN? Yes. VERA, I MISS YOU. ><

I was so pooped after all that. I've no idea why. Soozhong left the internet pretty early, for once, and so- I thought I'd return Emma's e-mail. Emma selected me to do a case study on. I shall quote her initial message, here: Hi Cyndi. As part of my reporting to FReeZA about their funding we need to do a case study about a person involved in the organisation and I was wondering if I could do my case study on you? Now, that's all well and good. I answered the questions for her, last night. VERY LONG ANSWERS, MAY I ADD. Then I received THIS e-mail: hey cindy. almost all good. are you able to re answer questions b, c, d and e in regards specifically to the asian pop night event? sorry i should have said that when i first emailed you. Gosh, that just drives me nuts, since there were only questions a, b, c, d, e and f... I answer a, fine- need to redo b, c, d and e- AND I NEVER ANSWERED F 'CAUSE I WANTED TO KNOW WHAT THE QUESTION MEANT. BUT I DON'T THINK SHE EVEN NOTICED. SO ESSENTIALLY, I ONLY ANSWERED ONE QUESTION, AFTER I SPENT 40 ODD MINUTES ON IT. -_- I was tired as heck, last night, but I thought I should get it out the way. NOW, I have to basically redo the whole thing, and... Well, I don't have anything to say, anymore. D: It took me ages to come up with suitable answers, and now I have to start over. Not happy.

Overall, today's been a peaceful day. I haven't conversed with anyone but Soozhong, which makes me feel kind of lonely. xD But, oh! Mum texted me, before, which made me happy- even though she just reminded me to do my chores. xD Hahah, Wendy should be home in about 10 minutes, and well... I think I didn't need that full half an hour to blog, afterall. xD I've only been here about 10 minutes and... Yeah! ^O^ I guess I'm feeling quite pumped. Except for those questions- those are bringing me down, a little.

There's a lot to do, now-a-days, and I'm afraid my online life has to be put on halt. I haven't been able to think about Silh0uette since 2009 started. So much has happened in the past two months- and I just can't believe it all. All these little problems arising, and the hurt I felt a few days ago- it just can't be erased. I talked to a couple of people about it... But overall... Overall, it's been tough. 2009 hasn't gotten off to the best start. But as long as I concentrate on what's ahead, and the good things in life- I can't go wrong. As long as I'm with you, I can't go wrong. :)

Already.

2009-01-19T00:44:24Z

Two days have gone by and I haven't even set foot in here! How unlike me! :( There's a lot of things that I haven't done for this blog- and I don't think I'll ever get around to it. I know- I know- that's not the attitude I should be having! T_T But it's only true! It's a shame that I've begun 2009, like this... I think I should still blog on a regular basis, however, perhaps EVERYDAY is a bit too extreme... Don't you agree? >< I still keep my Google calendar updated, although, no one sees that but me- and my trusty companion who has my password. x_x Hahah, speaking of which, his conversation is beeping like crazy, so I'll have to continue this a little later! ><

12:30 edit - Okay, since I've signed out of G-Talk now- I've no disturbances! HAHA, not that Soozhong was a disturbance, of course. :) Hmmm! Today's mostly consisted of chores, so far. I woke up, washed my face, brushed my teeth and tied my hair. And from there, I just got stuck into hanging out the clothes, socks, washing the dishes and just cleaning- overall. I have no idea why, but I have this urge to keep everything neat and clean. Dan thinks I'm so weird, but anytime he touches me things- he "dusts" it off and makes it seem like he cares, as well. xD OR SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES! He just reminds me how silly I am, without outright bagging me. xD

I've pretty much been doing everything by the hour. It feels good to be organised. Hopefully I'll be done with this blog by 1pm, and then I'll get stuck into ironing. Hehe. ^^ I feel like today's begun quite beautifully! :D Mum's gone back to work- and so, I'm home alone for the next two weeks. However, tomorrow, I've got radio to go to. That's 8-9pm on SYN 90.7fm, everyone! Please be sure to listen to Jessie and I. :D We're on every Tuesday! ^^

I played a bit of Pet Society, earlier, but I'm starting to think that it's a bit WEIRD. They have this Cafe feature, where you can visit random people's pets, and people have been visiting mine and adding my FaceBook. Furthermore, I received a message from one girl saying that she had a fun time playing with Silly Boy (my pet's name) and that she hopes that we can become friends so that we can play again... Oh man. I don't think Pet Society is the kind of game where you MEET PEOPLE. It's just plain WEIRD to me. I'm just trying to save up my coins! I've gone down in ranking BADLY. Shandi and Kimberly are nutters. Xinzhi, Aveline and I have all fallen dramatically. -_-

As for the past few days... I guess I've seen a few people, here and there. I'll look back on my calendar for assitance! Now, let's start with yesterday! No phone calls, or anything, yesterday. :) I generally seem to have heaps from zee one man- but hopefully, we'll learn not to spend so much money! >< It's kind of crazy, when you think how much us teenagers can spend! :x I can't wait until reality hits me. -_- I don't want to live in ignorance for much longer. Especially with Year 12 coming up!

My parents went out dancing from 2pm to 5pm?! I don't know the exatc times, but they were gone longer than usual. I had originally planned to drop by Linnie's house, so that I could talk with Melvyn about Year 12 and just spend some time with the family. :) But, that idea got cancelled. I stayed home and did chores, instead. Wendy is SUCH a butt. She's like, "NO, you go do it." She really doesn't help... Thing is- mum's just painted the deck and dad grows a LOT of plants. Mum said to put the plants on top of a piece of material, so that the dirt wouldn't go all over the deck, but I didn't know where to get the material from... I asked Wendy for help, but she said she wouldn't help me find any material; that she'd only help with the heavy-lifting. -_- Okay, I should be thankful enough that she did help me, in the end... BUT MAN. The way she yelled at me. She really can get on my nerves, sometimes. I don't understand why she's so lazy. :x Ahh, but alas. I need her. She says that when she was my age, she never went out or spent money like I do. But also, when she was my age, she didn't go half the crap that I do. -_- It always seemed like she watched cartoons, all day. Hmm. I don't think I remember clearly enough, though. I'll just blame my memory for not remembering what an awesome daughter she was!

My parents deserve so much more. ><

On Saturday, we had visitors drop in on us at 7pm. Thing is- I wouldn't really have minded- not if they phoned, first. Really, we'd just finished dinner, we're all like, lounging about- digesting our meals! T_T The house was a mess, and as soon as I saw the car pull in, I ran and picked up all that I could and quickly told Wendy we had guests. My hair was a mess, too. I'd just come out of the shower and it was all wet, of course. D: It seemed horrible...

That visit from Tiffany's family made me realise quite a few things. Now, Tiffany's basically the same age, as me. I never understood it when I was younger, but she's born in 1992, and she's undergoing Year 12 this year, also. Now that's deadly- it just results in parents bragging over their child. It's a horrible feeling, for me. If I do well- I do well. If I do badly, I don't want another parent hearing about it! Actually, I don't want anyone to hear about how well or badly I do. It's up to me to decide who I want to know, and at this point, I'm wondering if telling my parents is all its worth! T_T I just don't want to disappoint them. ><

Quite a few phones that day- morning, afternoon and night. The night-time ones would've been the most interesting, after how I felt... But, that'll be kept between Soozhongee and I. :) He always lifts my spirits! <3

On Friday, I made a little booking with Dandan and we went to the library to study, together! Soozhong called me in the morning, as I was getting ready. Dan said he'd meet me at 11am, at my house. :) We set off to the library at 11:15am and arrived about 15 minutes later. :) He decided that we should chill, first, and then get stuck into it. We didn't actually DO much, for what Dan had in mind. But that's alright! It was awesome to catch up, and seeing as I don't have any classes with him, this year... It's all that I can ask for.

Hehe, Dan and his "schedule!" He's not very organised, but at least he works to a schedule. xD But, Soozhong said that's procrastinating at its best. xD Hehe. Oh well! I'm sure he managed to get a little work, done. I'm not actually too sure, since I never saw his work. -_- At 1pm, we set off to the shops to buy drinks and some food! We stepped into Safeway, first, where he got a Big M of some sort- and then headed to Baker's Delight so that I could buy an Italian roll. YES, MAGGIE. ITALIAN ROLL. T_T I wish you were here. <3

Next up, we went to Big W, and there, I saw Melvyn and Uncle Alex! I talked with them for a bit, and Dan walked off. -_- The day prior, Melvyn called me and we talked about Year 12 and what we're thinking of doing, in the future. I've grown up with Melvyn; always by my side. :D I'm so glad they ended up moving down here; it's kind of crazy, I can't imagine life without 'em! :D They've been living in that house for ten years, now, but it feels like my lifetime. xD

Eek, it's already 12:58pm, I'm going to have to cut this short, so that I can keep my day moving! T_T I'll continue blogging another time, but I'm sure I'll get back to this, soon. I'll be setting intervals, and such! Don't you worry. :D I also have to finish tagging my blogs. :x I tried tagging that MASSIVE blog from Wednesday, but heck! It was intensely LONG. T_T Mum just sent me a text about the chores, and I said I'd already done them and she said, "good girl." HAHA. T_T Oh man. xD What a cracker! Anyways, I'll be off, for now! Take care in the meantime, everyone! ^O^

Dearest.

2009-01-16T08:53:56Z

First of all- I'd like to wish a very happy birthday to the following lovelies: Hannah, Yen, Julie and Zoe! :) Much love to all of you, seventeen and eighteen year olds. Gosh, we're all growing up, hey? ._. It really is a big day! Not only is there four birthdays, but it's my Dong Bang anniversary! HAHA. -_- How lame! I remember that it was Hannah's birthday, the day I first saw them; the day Shandi corrupted me with their music videos and I- I foolishly fell in love. xD 16th of January, 2005. It's the day my life started changing. Without Korean music- I probably would never have been inspired to become a radio show host... Therefore, I would have never been on TV and never hosted that event at Federation Square. And I've really met the most awesome people at SYN. Really, life would be so different. I'm so glad that Shandi introduced me to TVXQ. xD I owe 'em. :)

Toxic.

2009-01-15T09:32:45Z

Now, if I didn't drag things out for so long, I would've been done with my entry about Tuesday. It's already Thursday! And of course, more and more happens. Now that I think about it- I never did finish my dedications. But it's kind of crazy how things change and all. I don't entirely feel the same about the people I wanted to thank fifteen days ago. :/ Hmm. All I know is- I have to mention Soothang and Benjamin- or else I'll go crazy inside. These two are my angels. :) My little brother and my son. <3 I love you both, so much! ^__^

Sooey, you and I have been through so much, together. When one's going through tough times, the other's always there to lend a hand. You know me best. We have our similarities; and they're just becoming more and more apparent as we grow up, together. Noona is always here for you, you know that, right? Don't ever be afraid to message me! I hope that 2009 will be filled with many bio study sessions. I look forward to this year, being in a class with you. It's like a dream. I love you, dongsaengie! 012!

Benjamin. Where do I begin? I wouldn't have survived 2008 without you. And sure, I know that sounds a bit over the top, but everytime I cried, you were there to wipe my tears. Your hugs always feel so sincere; you're always there for your friends. You're caring. You're helpful. You are perfect in all the aspects I can think of! :) My guardian... Thank you! You know how much you mean to me, right? I went into 2008, webcamming with you! Although 2009 began differently, I could never imagine life without you, here on out. I love you, muchly, my son!

Phew, now with that aside... I have so many others I need to mention. My school crew, consisting of Walsh, Hannah, Charmaine, Ryan, Thanh, Helena, Shane, Addison and so on... I just want to thank everyone, really! But I had to give these few a special mention. Although I can't do my dedications properly, please know that you all mean a lot to me and I'm glad that we have been able to spend another year, together! Let's see what 2009 holds for all of us! All the best; from the bottom of my heart. ♥

So Hot.

2009-01-14T08:01:18Z

Now that I have the time- I thought I'd give everyone a HUGE updated about YESTERDAY- which is what I've been working towards for the past two months. YES, I have put in quite a bit and overall- I was pretty happy with the results! I'd just like to say a huge thank you to: Andii, Benny, Dandan, Kevin, Sooli, Sue, Travis and Xinzhi! ^__^ AND THE MOST GINORMOUS (if that's how it's spelt, not that it's an actual word, right?) THANK YOU MY BOYFRIEND OF NEARLY 6 MONTHS~ SOOCHONG- otherwise known as SoochOMG, by the end of the day. xD HAHA. :D :D

Oh wow, where do I begin? First of all- the event I've been raving about is: ASIAN POP IDOL. It is the FIRST event ever held by Asian Pop Night at SYN- which I have been working with for nearly three years. SYN's Asian Pop Night launched five years ago- and it's just amazing to think that I'm one of the youngest working there- yet with the most experience. :P Hehe! I really owe Soochong a LOT. There's so much that he's done for me; and he's always been by my side, calming me down while I'm stressing out like heck! >< He really takes care of me. :) I love him muchly. *~*

Just, wow. I really don't know where to go from here... Let's start with when I woke up, at 7:35am. FT Island's "Live Like A Musical" was ringing from my phone and I woke up. I wasn't sure what time I should set my alarm for- seeing as I had to catch an 8:51am bus... I decided to play safe and wake up as early as possible. HOWEVER, I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE SLEEPING. I was a mix of nervous and excited- I was also worried about how hot it'd be. By the end of the night, I heard it'd reached 38! -_- HORRIBLE.

I brushed my teeth and started delibrating over what I should wear... BUT, after a while, I gave up because I was told that we HAD TO wear SYN shirts so that people knew we worked there? LIKE, WHAT?! I NEVER GOT A T-SHIRT. -_- Whatever. I got really sunburnt on the joint of my shoulder and arm... It's never seen daylight, before. HAHA. How embarrassing. It literally stung. -_- But I'll get into that LATER.

I pranked Dandan at 8am and made my migoreng! Mum mixed it and wow- she like, mixed it TOO well. o_o It was so crazy and it felt so dry. HAHA. Whoops. Oh well. I got dressed and mum helped me straighten my hair. I couldn't see much of a difference, but I could sure as heck feel it. My hair's really long- for me... -_- And it's grown quite uneven and messily. It's really time for a haircut- or something. I'm going to try and keep it as long as possible, so I might just get it trimmed to neaten it up. :)

Okay, so with hair and make-up all done, I had six minutes to spare... WAIT, WHAT?! SIX MINUTES? I rushed around the house, picking up my wallet and bag. LUCKILY, I planned ahead and packed most of it the night before. :x But, wow. Mum gave me $50 in $5 notes. HAHA. ALL IN $5 NOTES. -_- It was really weird. ZOMG, I FEEL LIKE I'M TALKING LIKE HOLDEN CAULFIELD. FJKLBNFSJKB, I really hate the word "really," right now- it feels like he uses it all the time. Okay, so Holden Caulfield is the narrator in "The Catcher In The Rye," and he has such a peculiar way of speaking- it drives me insane. He's really a crazy moron. -_- OR WHATEVER.

Anyways... I ran out to the bus stop and found that Dandan wasn't there, yet. So I called him. It was abut 8:50am at that time, and the bus was due to come ANY MINUTE... He was still locking his door and it apparently took him "30 seconds" to get to the stop. I could see the bus coming- but no sign of Dan. :/ Then I see him running across the street like a mad man and I jump on and stall time with my $5 notes. -_- Okay, so the thing is- I was a good citezin and I actually bought a full fare ticket. I have a conession card, but it expired a few days ago, which is kind of annoying, but oh well. I've been having really bad luck, lately, so I didn't want to risk it. And the bad luck didn't end; I'll elaborate on that, later.

The bus driver had trouble giving me change, at first. $10.60 for a ticket? I hate how expensive public transport is becoming. If they want us to use it- can't they make it a bit more affordable? Before, zone 1, 2 and 3, daily conession tickets cost: $4.90! That is completely MAD. It's gone from $4.90 to $5.60... And they just keep increasing it in 10 cent increments. -_- It's really annoying... 'Cause I was like, 10 cents short, once, 'cause they KEPT CHANGING IT! GAH. T_T They should really throw annoucements, beforehand, or something.

Throughout the bus ride, Dan and I just caught up. :) It's been a while since I've seen him- and even longer since I've hung out with him. We took the bus and train together- and enjoyed each other's company until we got to Federation Square, where I started talking to my co-workers. He pulled out a tie out of no where, and he put it on me, later. I wore it for the whole day and yeah. I WAS WEARING HIS TIE WHILE I WAS ON STAGE AT FEDERATION SQUARE. I WAS ON THE BIG SCREEN. I WAS... I HOSTED AN EVENT AT FEDERATION SQUARE! It really hasn't hit me, yet. Maybe it's not as big as I made it out to be... Was it big? I'm not even sure, anymore. I don't know if anyone's really excited about it- but it's always amazing when you meet your listeners or viewers. I've been on both radio and TV, so it's like :D! It's really such a crazy feeling. I love how friendly people are when they approach me. Thank you everyone who came up to greet me, yesterday! ^__^

I was drowned in X-Japan songs over the train ride. Not that I minded. I got Dan to play a little Cooking Mama; hehe, he failed. ;) Hehe! He quit and just tested me, instead. "What's this song? Come on, it's epic!" HAHA. <3 It was really nice to be with him! BFFL! :D I hope we hang out sometime soon. I'm really so glad he came, yesterday. It really meant so much to me and he even took photos and enjoyed himself. :D I was so glad that he actually liked at least one of the performances. And he sure as heck found another one amusing. But, yeah, one day... One day it'll be you, on stage. You and your band. I'm waiting for the day, Daniel. It'll be soon, don't worry. :D If I can get there, so can you! ^^

Wow, this is really long, and I haven't even gotten to the event, yet. Well, just to fast-forward here... When Dan and I got to Federation Square, Emma, Mabel and two SYN co-workers where there. I unfortunately forget their names, but they were nice guys and they helped me out when I asked. :D Very friendly! I love how friendly everyone is at SYN. <3 They're awesome. Oh, by the way, for those that don't know- SYN is voluntary work so none of us get paid. Mum thinks it's really annoying and that they should at least pay for my train fares. HAHA. -_- Oh well. I ENJOY WHAT I DO. ^^

Andii arrived around 11am, or so and the boys went to get slurpees. They bought me one back, also. <3 Hehe. I just talked with Emma and Mabel a bit, and all seemed well. Soon, the boys came back and I was delighted to be drinking something so cool. <3 I just don't think fizzy drinks are my thing- but YUM! ICE COLD. ^^ Hehe. I was really glad that Andii decided tocome. It was really a chain-reaction kind of thing... If Andii went, Dan would go. And in the end- I'M LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE GOTTEN BOTH. ^^ Andii really stirred up the crowd... WELL, kind of. He cheered and he was loud and he was just <3! Thank you, Andii. ^^ He's so supportive! :D :D I was so happy, last night, when he said he'd come... I'd really given up on asking people 'cause everyone said it was too hot... WHICH IT WAS. BUT TO THOSE WHO BRAVED IT OUT- I TRULY LOVE YOU ALL FOR COMING AND SUPPORTING ME. ^__^

My perception in time has been completely distorted. The heat was already getting to me, but I always believed it would never get so hot. Talk about some false hope; but I still believed. :x I saw a crowd of boys coming up towards Dan and Andii and then I realised it was: SOOCHONG, Benny, Travis, Sooli and Xinzhi! :O I was so surprised... Actually, I couldn't even see Trav, at first. Ben's like, "Cyndi, guess who's here?" And I looked up to see TRAV! ZOMG! I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM... FSJKBNKS. xD Not that I'm not usually happy to see him. :P HAHA. Ahh, it was really a crazy moment.

I'm really glad that Trav decided to come! I really expected him not to turn up- and it was just YEAH! FDJKBNFSK it was awesome. It was a really awesome surprise! I wish Mark could've come, too. :( But, Trav's presence really lifted my spirits. :D And Benny? DUDE! This guy will do anything for me. I'm really happy to have him as my friend; he's always been there for me. He's ALWAYS helped me through the tough times and he's the reason I managed to get through 2008. Because no matter what happened, at the end of the day- Ben was always there. <3 AND HE EVEN PLANNED ON COMING, NOT KNOWING THAT TRAV WAS COMING... HE WOULD'VE BEEN LIKE, ALONE FOR THE DAY, BUT HE STILL WOULD'VE COME. It means so much to me, just wow. TRAV AND BENNY. THANK YOU SO MUCH! <3

As for Soochong, he gets a beeger thanks at the end. He really spent the full day looking out for me. :D It was my first time meeting his cousin, Xinzhi. He's from Adelaide, so of course, he doesn't really know his way around and most probably isn't so comfortable, just yet. But, I talked with him a little. He's a little quite, but I guess when I did have time, I'd go up to him to make sure he was alright. I'd talked with him over the internet and once over the phone. :) It was interesting to finally meet him.

Sooli, Soochong's little brother, is SO TOLERANT. o_o Honestly, throughout the day, I kept asking if he was thirsty, or hungry, or hot or just EVERYTHING. I don't know why I was so worried about him... I guess I got some motherly-instinct after hanging around with Mendes so much. But Sooli's 12 and Mendes is 4. HAHA. -_- Yeah, Soochong said that I made Sooli happy and that he loves me. HAHA. That's so awesome to hear. T^T Honestly. I don't know why I like kids so much. Wow, Walsh would say that sounds so pedo, but I don't know... I like when they ask questions and they learn things. It's nice to see how they actually remember things you tell and teach them. :D They're always so ready to learn. As you get older, you kind of lose that motivation as the work gets harder. I wish I had the motivation of kids, still. xD

Sooli did a great job in handing out cards! I had a pile of cards that advertised the event- and I just got my friends to hand them all out. I've been really edgy about how they've been distributed, 'cause I don't want all the money going to waste. I mean, I never thought about it before- but getting it printed and such- it really does cost quite a bit and money doesn't come from thin air. I'm starting to think more carefully about what I do with... Flyers, now. HAHA. -_-

Somewhere in between all that, I checked my phone to find a text from Sue. She asked for a chair- for her performance. xD I asked Emma about it and we were able to get that for her. Just, amazing, she really had it all planned out. The audience was pretty wow-ed by her performance. I quote the listeners' text- Sue's performance had "power." But, from there, they questioned whether it was a karaoke competition, or what? Sue's basically the only one who really added that OOMPH. And it really enhanced her performance. It really did. I'm really sounding like Caulfield, now, RIGHT? -_-

Time seemed to pass by slow and fast, at the same time. I was waiting for people to arrive, but I'm not sure if I was ready yet. People started signing up and we managed to fill all of block A, in no time. o_o I was really in awe! I wasn't sure how many people would even come out since it was so hot. I was discouraged to think that anyone would even turn up, really. BUT, THEY CAME, THEY CAME! T^T Sue, Kevin, Annabelle and Tanika soon arrived! If there were others- I didn't see 'em. Jamie appeared out of no where. o_o And more later came, but I didn't know 'em. ._. Hahah. :x

I gave Sue a hug and waved at Annabelle, who was staring at me like I was her old friend, or something. xD I was so confused, and also feeling bad 'cause I couldn't remember her. I thought I'd met her, before, so I asked Kevin and he's like, "OMG, YOU DON'T KNOW BELLE? HOW COULD YOU FORGET BELLE?" And he hugged her in comfort and I'm like, "did I meet her after school, one day, or something? T__T" I was honestly completely unsure. xD Whatever the case, I'd met her before, we shook hands as we introduced ourselves. :D

I'm really glad that Sue performed. She really did add that oomph to the performances and I'm just in awe. xD She put on quite a show- so if you weren't there- YOU SURE AS HECK MISSED OUT! Even though I've already seen two videos of it. HAHA. -_- I watched ALL performances on a side view, which is what kind of sucks about being MC, since I REALLY couldn't enjoy any of it. :( It was just amazing to see her perform and it was all fun-filled. ^^ I'm glad that she managed to convince herself to participate, hehe.

As for Kevin, that guy! He's nuts! But his promotion of the event really helped, I'm sure. He started chasing after girls, and everything. He had all the cards in his hand and just ran after them. HAHA. He was amazing. xD Honestly. That guy... Without him- it wouldn't be the same. He really added something to the audience and I was so happy to have him there. :D :D Thank you so much to both Kevin and Sue. ^__^

The show hasn't even started yet, and look how long this blog is... I'm thinking I'll have to split this blog into three or four parts, because it really did go over a long time. I don't want to forget ANY of it. T_T I've been typing for nearly an hour and I only have this to show. :x I'm so thirsty, so I might take a break. -_- But, during this time- just before the show... The boys all went to get food/drinks, so on. And I made them hand out flyers. :D I'm really thankful to all the boys who took on the challenge. THANK YOU, EVERYONE! :D You guys helped me, so much. ^__^ Emma thought you did an awesome job. Emma, being basically, my co-ordi for the day. :D :D

A lot of jokes thrown around. I joked around with SOOLI about SOOCHONG. HAHA. He laughed quite a bit. ^^ Hehe. <3 Ben caught me out, but... And it just became entirely wrong. -_- DAMN YOU, BEN! It got Trav laughing. -_- And I think Xinzhi was probably all -_- inside! I'll have to elaborate that one another time... Actually, I don't think I will, ever. UNLESS YOU ASK, NICELY. You, only being Soochong, 'cause he'll know what I'm on about, already. HAHA. T_T It's horrible.

Jennifer, my former Asian Pop Night co-ordi, came up to us and asked if any of us were performing. She did an interview and I managed to talk with her for a bit, as well. I'm glad that she still remembers me and she's doing so well, now. I really have so much to talk with her about! She said that I should contact her, and well, this may be a start to my career, ladies and gentleman! :O I'm really not sure, yet. I could really get into this kind of business... HMMM, I'll elaborate about that a little later! From the next post on, it's all about the show! :)

Bird by Bird.

2009-01-10T13:59:52Z

It's National Bird Day in the U.S. Do you think it's cruel to keep birds in cage where they can't fly freely or flock with others of their kind?

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Hmm, I've been seeing Justine using this "writer's block" feature on LiveJournal, so I thought I might answer a question or two, also. Actually, I probably won't even answer it- it just sparks some thoughts that I haven't covered, in the past week. So, last Saturday, my dad opened tried to take my budgie out of the aviary. I prefer to call it an aviary- 'cause a cage sounds so confined... Well, my budgie is really tame. I've been training him for the past three months. :/ And well, yeah- dad thought he'd still be pretty well-behaved, but in the time that we left him in the avery, his feathers became longer and he was able to fly. So, he fly away... We ended up losing him. I have no idea where he is- and my other budgie is lonely, now. She's started chasing flies. ._.

It's really depressing, but I guess I haven't been thinking about it. I really loved him. I freaked over the littlest things. He started bleeding, randomly. I was so afraid. I called Soochong, straight away. ._. I didn't know what to do. I called dad. Mum. Wendy. Five times- each. >< I just needed to figure out what to do for him. I couldn't take him to a vet. WENDY TOOK MY EYES, THAT DAY. I COULDN'T EVEN GET OUT OF THE HOUSE TO PUT OUT THE LAUNDRY. -_- This bird and I- we've been through so much. T_T

As for the question, when you label it like that- yeah, it does sound cruel. But it just all depends. My pets have of course- grown up in the aviary, where food is presented to them. Now, if we were to set them free- it'd be cruel. Why? They'd be going into unknown territory and they'd be so scared. I remember at one point, we had WAY too many birds, so dad opened the door. He reluctantly opened the door to let them free... BUT THEY WENT BACK IN. I WATCHED THEM. They'd hop out into the open and just turn around and go back in! It was really <3! They know where home is...

Sad thing is- there was one who didn't know how to make it back home and dad was really worried that it wouldn't be able to find food. So, I guess it's not cruel to keep them in a "cage," as long as you provide for it. Flocking with its own kind- well- there's other kinds of birds which do that. I used to have a homing pigeon which loved finding other pigeons. HE EVEN BROUGHT THEM HOME TO MEET ME. AHAHA. It was SO funny 'cause he brought home this really ATHELETIC pigeon, and I was like, "WHOA," 'cause my pigeon looked so... Fat, compared to it. xD

Hehe, my pigeon was a little king. :) I dare say. xD I did all that I could for him. I was really worried once, 'cause he went out one day and when I next saw him- he was being chased by an eagle. o_o It must've been really scary for him. -_- See? Being in the wild, flocking with his own kind isn't always the best thing. :x I guess I'm really biased about this, but, 'cause I want to keep them as pets, for myself. >< I used to keep my budgie in my room and we'd sing to songs together. >_> I guess at home, I need the company, so he was perfect for me. xD

There was even a local dove that used to come by, everyday. Actually, after a while, he became ours. He'd come to the door and walk in front of it to notify us of his presence. And we'd go outside to give him some seed. :) It's just how it went. He passed away a few years back, of old age. I grew up with him. Hahah, it's really weird to say, but I really did. My cousin once told us to catch him and... Well, eat him. I nearly cried. How could my family be like that? Dad was like, "uhm, nah." -_-

Yeah, I have a LOT of memories with birds. It's really quite odd. xD Hahah, I should probably try some new pets. It's just that I've had birds all my life. When I was younger, some of the birds would get cold at night, so we used to bring them in and look after them. Most of them would be babies, so they wouldn't know how to eat, yet. We used to feed them, seed by seed- since we couldn't exactly puke seed into their mouth like their parents do. D: We were so patient... >< It felt so good to see them all healthy. It felt good to see them return to their family and with the other birds of their kind.

But with that, we've also lost quite a few pets, due to various reasons. It's been tough. >< But the toughest times would be when they're MURDERED by cats. I have such an intense hate... I really hate how they can just come into my garden. Why aren't they kept inside? Stupid. It's really stupid. I hate cats, so much. I wish I could bring back all my pets that have been attacked by any cats... It really pisses me off- I can't even string together any words of worth on this topic. I'm just so angry.

When I was a baby, my family used to own hamsters and the local cats used to kill them and take 'em home for their owner. Then their owner came knocking on our door telling us that they didn't like having our dead hamsters on their doorstep. So dad replied, "I don't like your cat killing my pets." It really took some nerve of that neighbour. Dad ended up leaving some sort of poison in our backyard and the cat ended up eating it. GG CAT. >_> I know it's evil, but man. >_> I was pretty angry when I heard about it. D: Whatever. :x It's over, now.

Point is. I miss my budgie. :(

Wish.

2009-01-10T06:05:08Z

Before I forget- I dreamt quite a lot, last night. I must be fearing the school year, 'cause this is the second or third dream which I've had, these holidays. Generally I dream about things that are current- so if I go to school, well- I dream about school. BUT, I HAVEN'T BEEN NEAR SCHOOL IN OVER A MONTH. -_- It's really weird. :/ I always have such worrying dreams, as well. I think my sub-conscious is telling me I need to do my homework, 'cause these are like NIGHTMARES to me. xD Hmm.

Well, the bits and pieces I remember are... My first class of the year was CHEMISTRY, and MARK happened to be in my class. Now, Mark is in Year 9, this year, I know he's smart and all- but MY YEAR 12 CHEM CLASS? That's a bit extreme. I sat with him- and my usual crew sat up the back. BUT WALSH WASN'T THERE? I don't know why Walsh wasn't around. He was absent for the first class?! VERY WEIRD.

The classroom- well- it was actually my Grade 4 classroom. o_o Is that a bit weird? :/ Like, it was my year 12 chem class, but the way it was set up was like my Grade 4 class room. And our first piece of work was to colour in a map? Or something. Okay, it just gets weirder and weirder. Our teacher was MRS. BRYDIE. Mrs. Brydie was my SOSE teacher in Year 10 and my Psychology teacher LAST YEAR. -_- Uhm, what? Since when did she teacher Chem? The task seemed more SOSE related. ._. Hmmmmmm.

Yeah, by the time I went to go get a map- from the TUB... YES, OUR WORK WAS IN A TUB. I dream of my primary school days. -_- Hmmm, I wonder if this all means something- but I don't think I should go into interpretations, now. Anyways- by the time I went to get a map, they'd RUN OUT! SO I got REALLY paranoid about being BEHIND everyone else... First day of year 12, and I'm already lugging behind. D: Hahah. T_T Even Mark was ahead of me. xD

I guess this dream went by pretty quick, 'cause before I knew it, I was at my locker- which was a TOP LOCKER THAT I COULD BARELY REACH. -_- And it had all these dents and everything. I remember hearing that most people switched to middle or top lockers and that only bottom lockers were vacant. o_o I don't know who told me, though. I had a feeling Soochong was around, but I also feel as if that's what I WANTED... Like, maybe he wasn't really there, but I missed him in my dream. D:

Soon enough, Walsh surprised me and he was at school, afterall! I gave him a beeg greeting and his locker was nearby- all dented, as well. -_- I don't remember conversing with anyone but Walsh, Mark and a random girl from my Chem class. I don't think I liked her. HAHA. -_- I have no idea. But, really! I remember being lonely. :( Like, without Soochong to hang with me every recess/lunch. It's so retarded. -_- I think Walsh disappeared on me, as well. -_- WHAT DO I DO. xD

All these crazy dreams, as of late. Maggie and I were talking about our fangirl dreams, and it was just HILARIOUS how stupid mine sounded. I know- fangirl dreams sound retarded in general- but mine are just plain weird. The two about Jonghun and Donghae... HAHA. Maggie's like, "AWW, THAT'S SO CUTEE!" Then I tell her what triggered the dream and she laughed so much. HAHA, I was laughing, too. I feel like I have the stupidest dreams. xD I'd post more of Maggie and my conversation- but my LJ cutting seems to be failing me, so. :(

[12:28:04 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: Uhh. xD

Okay, we were playing tennis.

I'm not sure who we is. xD

[12:28:04 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: Jonghun me- another FT Member maybe, and

another girl friend? xD

ROFL. xD

[12:28:04 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: Uhhh, then I went to the corner of the

court and said, "my arms are tired. T_T"

My wrists, my hands, or something.

[12:29:01 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: And Jonghun came and sat with me.

And he held my hands. :$

[12:29:01 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: But they were SOOOOOOOOOOOOO ROUGH.

OMG. :-O

I was thinking.

"AWWWW, HE MUST PRACTISE GUITAR SO MUCH. T____t"

[12:29:01 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: I was in awe!

And I was very embarrassed.

And that moment lasted until I woke up.

HAHA.

[12:31:36 AM] maggienoodle: AWW.

[12:31:36 AM] maggienoodle: THAT IS REALLY CUTE ACTUALLY.

XDD

[12:32:26 AM] maggienoodle: oh speaking of FT dreams. apparently

qianhui dreamt that FT island came to macrob ~

[12:32:27 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: LMAOOOO.

[12:32:36 AM] maggienoodle: and that hongki started liking ME

[12:32:39 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: Wait- I'm not done, yet. xD

...

:-O

[12:32:42 AM] maggienoodle: but hongki's her favourite

[12:32:48 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: Okay, as long as it's not Hwani.

LMAO. xD

[12:32:57 AM] maggienoodle: AHAHA.

[12:33:07 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: Heheheh. xD

FT. T_T <3

[12:33:12 AM] maggienoodle: OH? I THOUGHT YOU WOKE UP.

[12:33:15 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: I want more fangirl dreams.

[12:33:16 AM] maggienoodle: sorry! XD

[12:33:17 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: ROFL, yes, but.

The reason.

[12:33:20 AM] maggienoodle: man, lag

[12:33:25 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: As to why I had that dream. xD

Uhhh.

Wendy...

LMAO.

Wendy was telling me how rough her hands had become from

workiing.

[12:33:25 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: And then she got me to tough them.

HAHAHAHA.

AND YEAH.

[12:34:01 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: They were so rough. xD

And then I dreamt about rough hands.

HAAHAHHA.

[12:34:35 AM] maggienoodle: hahahahaHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHA

JONMGHUN HAS WEDNY HANDS!

[12:34:46 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: HAHAHAHA. xD

[12:34:48 AM] maggienoodle: so laggy, sorry T_T

[12:34:51 AM] , 민환&cyndi:: It was a nice dream but HAHAHA.

It's okay. <3

Chasing Time.

2009-01-10T05:22:49Z

Alright- so, I've replied the FaceBook wall posts- which actually wasn't many... It was just Shaun's long comment which I put off for a week. I'm sorry. D: He's my idol and yet I can't even make time to reply him instantly. D: I'm sure he's not too fussed, though! I'm glad I'm still keeping in contact with a few of the year 12's of 2008. Okay, actually, not that many- but I've talked with Sue, Shaun and Kevin. If there were any others- well, YEAH. xD And Soochong's a given. :) Hehe. I wish all the year 12's of 2008 the best in their future. :) It's sad to see that they've gone. D: I remember arguing with Sam in the middle of a shopping centre about them going and them being gone. -_- Gosh, Sam. D:

As for the other comments I replied- one was Payal's. She's such a FaceBook addict; it's really quite odd, 'cause she adds randoms, and well- she ended up adding Shandi? :/ I asked her how she knew her- but yeah, she didn't. -_- Hahah, oh well. I've gotten random add's, too, but I haven't added one by random. :/ The only people I add that may not remember/know me- well, I message them, first! Like, Kevin, for example! xD Hahah, that was good fun, while it lasted. :P

I have MySpace comments that I don't think I'll ever reply. I'm over MySpace. It's not as easy to comment on people. :x I love the "wall-to-wall" feature on FaceBook. T_T It makes life so much easier. <3 At first I was completely biased against FaceBook, but it really is a lot better... And it's way easier to connect with people. The only thing I don't like about it is the way it updates about everyone. xD As in- relationship status? It's all annouced to the world. I still haven't changed my status... -_-

I replied the Soompi PM's and I've been quite happy with my promotion of the Asian Pop Idol event. I should really give a long-winded post about that, in it's entirity. There's only a few days to go- and here I am CHANGING MY LIVEJOURNAL LAYOUT, instead. -_- I really like it, but. :x I don't know why I suddenly felt like going into a customised layout, but it looks so pretty. :x At first I wasn't so keen on that yellow-ish colour, but after pondering, I quite like the look of it. I wish I could design my own layouts... Maybe when I'm older... But I'll probably have even LESS time, then. -_- I should've acquired more skill at a younger age. ._.

In the meantime, nothing much has happened, today. It's been quite relaxing. :) I think I should really get stuck into homework, instead. xD Hahah, apparently I'm going to get my hair trimmed before Tuesday? Is that a risk? xD Actually, my hair's really been growing out weird. :/ I've wanted it trimmed for a month or so, already- but we never got around to going out and... Getting it done. -_- Hopefully mum finds a place that she approves of. She's so picky when it comes to prices and all. :/ And well- it's recommended NOT to go to Tommy's? Hmm. xD

Pit-A-Pat

2009-01-09T12:15:10Z

It's currently 11.11! My favourite time of the day. <3 I think, after I finish watching this "Kissing You" remix, I'll get stuck into my dedications, again. It really has been dragged out too long. -_- My computer's lagging quite a bit- so I should probably come back to this when I'm doing a little less. >< I just feel really happy about the outcome of today. :D I think I'm growing up. ^^ It's a good time to- as well... Just before Year 12. :D The summer break. I've been without my bestfriend for what seems like so long, already. ._. She's been online, though! Which is a relief! But I have so much to tell her, and when she's there, it just slips my mind 'cause I'm either so happy or now-a-days, too busy to even tell her. :( With the Asian Pop Idol event approaching, my time is becoming tight. I really have to be careful about how much time I put into what, and right now- I'M NOT USING IT WISELY. -_- I'll get back to this... :x

12:11 edit - Gosh, it's already been an hour and things just havent died down. There's been conversations on MSN- some of which quite important- but I'll leave the discussing of those for another entry. I've been catching up with Ryan, which is awesome, 'cause yeah, I miss him, much so. I haven't talked with him in a bit, and I haven't seen him in forever! >< Also, Benjamin is AWESOME. I love SuperBenny. :) He makes life so much easier. :D The conversations just got a little more distracting, again. -_- I have so much to reply to- Soompi PM's about the event, FaceBook comments, LiveJournal comments... It all just piles on. xD In time, in time. BUT, NOW! I WANT TO GO READ SOOCHONG'S BLOG-LIKE THING. T_T I gave him a diary and asked him to write about his trip to Adelaide in it. He wrote the first night. And that's it. HAHA. -_- But he wrote something else, about Wednesday, which I look forward to reading. :D If I can... His writing's a bit messy. :x Hehehe, I had such a great day, today! I love him, so much. :D :D

Gee.

2009-01-08T11:06:19Z

Gosh, it's so catchy. I really can't get it out of my mind; I almost feel like I should be learning the choreography, or something. It's not that great of a song, when I think of what's out there, but it is DAMN CUTE. T_T And I love cute things. D: Although, the album booklet is quite- revealing. o_o It's really a new look for Girls' Generation, hey? xD But they look so pretty! I've found that I don't stumble across many Girls' Generation FANS; however more ANTI'S. :x I think I developed a soft spot for them after "Kissing You," and also after all those comments about my similarity in looks to Tiffany. :/ It started with Linnie- and it just became more frequent from then on. x_x

I remember watching one of their performances and I wasn't all that impressed by their vocals- EXCEPT TAEYEON. She's simply amazing. Not many other members caught my eye... Well, of course, I'm a girl- but Taeyeon's pretty cute. ^O^ I'm allowed to think that, right? HAHA. -_- Sooyoung reminds me of Amelia, so I like her, as well. HAHA. I particularly like Yuri- most likely after seeing her in Unstoppable Marriage with Jajini. :D It's really spreading the love. :D :D Hahah, and of course, I'm kind of obliged to like Tiffany! I think Anna told me a little bit about her before debut. o_o

Sunny was SO adorable in "Cooking? Cooking!" Her expressions and everything. HER VOICE IS JUST INSANE. HOW CAN IT BE SO HIGH-PITCHED AND CUTE? >< Is it weird that I'm spazzing about a girl group? o_o I tried to convert Kevin, so I showed him a picture, but NO. He's all against it. xD Damn. xD Hahah, hmm... Who else is there... SEOHYUN! She's sooo pretty in the Gee music video! I couldn't recognise her, honestly. :x I wasn't sure who was who- at first, and I was looking for Yuri... I don't know why. HAHA.

That leaves Hyoyeon- who I think is EXTREMELY under-rated, at times. ._. I really hope they give her more screen time. Speaking of which- Yuri hardly had any. HAHA. -_- Hmmm... Then there's Jessica... Or Sexica? Was it? She really is kind of pretty... Although it's weird how I show guys pictures and they never like her. :/ It's rather interesting, actually! o_o And the last member... Who I delibrately left 'till last... Yoona. ._. I just can't seem to like her. D: I know it's bad, but I just don't. She feels so central, in the group, and I don't like "main" people. :x She's always in the middle. HAHA. -_- What an odd reason to dislike her. But, nah, there's more. :x I shall just save it for my own mind, 'cause I'm wasting my breath if I start hating on her.

Now, what I should be focusing on is- COMPILING THE CD'S THAT I'M GOING TO USE FOR TUESDAY! I think I'll say a little bit more about Tuesday in my next post... But, point is- I NEED MUSIC. I need music to play for a huge event in the city- which I'm going to MC for. o_o It's called "Asian Pop Idol." SO, if anyone has songs they'd like to share with me- that'd be greatly appreciated! Korean, Mandarin, Japanese! ANYTHING! I need Mandarin in particular, since I listen to none. Actually, I need help with Japanese, too. >_> As for Korean- I think I'm well covered. HAHA. -_-

I'll get stuck into it, again. ._.

We.

2009-01-07T06:30:47Z

Good morning? Hahah, it's 5pm and my sense of time has totally been skewed. Last night, Kevin and I stayed up 'till what- nearly 5am? -_- I tried to send him to bed like- three, four times and then we'd launch into a new topic. -_- We got a lot said, but. It really is quite interesting how I've managed to talk to him, so easily. :D It's like there was never much awkwardness- which is surely the awesomeness! I'll be seeing him on Tuesday and he's even bringing a few "mates," as he calls them. xD He's so Australian. xD And he told me to not speak Hakka to him. HAHA. There's so Asian in my cousin, at all.

HAHA, ZOMG, he just went to go play DOTA. -_- He reminds me of Nathan- only Nathan types in caps lock, a lot. o_o Kevin's more reserved. Maybe that's why I find it so easy to talk to him. Their personalities seem to be similar, although- their hobbies, interests and everything else is SO different. Oh- besides DOTA, that is. -_- It really seems to be a craze EVERYWHERE. I'm glad that I haven't fallen onto the bandwagon. I don't think Mucus would be able to take it, anyways. I only ever play Pet Society on Wendy's computer- and even still- her computer's withering away due to viruses and other factors. -_- Her poor machine. I forgot what it was called- but we name all our computers. xD

Today, I don't even feel tired. It's really frustrating- I don't know what's wrong with me. When I hopped into bed, I simply couldn't sleep. I just couldn't stop thinking and then, I got a few texts, which just kept me up for even longer. By the time I got some shut eye- it was 8am. :/ I woke up again at 9, but, and kept waking up every 15 minutes as if I wasn't meant to sleep in, today. I fought the crazy patterns and stayed in bed until 1pm. Even though I didn't really sleep, at all. I felt tired at 5am, but I just couldn't bring myself to sleep! So I just lay there. I knew it'd all come in time... Too bad it never really did overcome me.

I'm not sure how to convey what's been on my mind, as of late. I don't think I'll ever be the same, again. Pieces of me that have been twisted- changed... I can't seem to figure out what I was like, originally. I've been trying to talk to my friends- figure out what I was to them. What was I like? Now-a-days, I find that I can't really continue conversations with many people. I guess it really is time to leave the internet-world and get stuck into my studies. Right now- I think I should nap, but. I'm not even tired, but it's the best idea.

Today has been filled with happiness- otherwise. My mum rid of her migoreng ban, so I was able to have two packets, today. o_o Unfortunately, I became intensely sick, afterwards... Taste aversion, now? HECK. I've been deprived for so long- I think I'll still eat it. But when I think about it- it really does seem so unclean- and disgusting. :x I was telling Kevin what my mum thought about it and he laughed so much at my last point... Which I think I'll save for private conversations. -_- Gosh, mum.

Wendy even had some migoreng! She added all sorts of things to hers, but. It looked nice, in someway- but man, she sure does over-do her food. xD Hahah, all-in-all, Wendy said it was so- slimey? And also that the chilli was WAY too strong, although she only put half. She said that it was probably made to be so strong so that you coudln't taste how crap it really is. ._. Oh well. :/ DAD was the one who wanted to buy me migoreng. He always spoils me. >< Hehe, I guess I've always been daddy's little girl.

Mum also bought me JELLY CUPS. I saw these, last night, when I was with Soochong- but I get frustrated when I can't open them. Most of the time, I have to sit there with a knife, carving them all, open. -_- It's really depressing... How can jelly cups tease me so? :/ These bite size jellies- what delight! I which they came in bigger servings- but that would then defeat the purpose of them. >< Ahh. T_T I think my brain's starting to wither, now, 'cause it's the first time I've tried to do so much thinking, today.

Basically, I talked with Kevin, up until now- with an hour and a half break, where I was talking with Mendes. Mendes has been asking where I've been. He wants me to go visit him, again, again and again. xD He's so cute. ^^ He's waiting for my return. >< Aww! Linnie decided to call me over Skype- and the whole family started getting into it. Mum, dad, Uncle Alex, Wendy, Linnie, Mendes and ME! HAHA, just missing Melvyn and Aunty Jalita. xD Mendes' English is getting better- and he totally owns me when it comes to Hakka. xD I can't wait until he starts school. He's my inspiration. <3

Linnie wanted to talk to me- but Mendes said, "NO. LINNIE NO TALK. MENDES TALK." HAHA, poor Lin. Mendes only wanted to talk with me- and he kept saying he was scared of my parents. HAHA. It was so cute. Seeing my parents' smiles... <3 I wonder what I received when I was growing up. xD I still get these loving smiles from dad when I say stupid things, but. -_- Or when I act too attached to the family. -_- Hahah. T^T It's the way he's brought me up. FAMILY IS NUMBER ONE. :D :D <3

But right now- sleep is number one. >_> I think I should really nap, for the benefit of my life. Hahah. T_T Just wow- I haven't heard TVXQ in so long- Micky's "I pray for this love to be true..." It always sends chills down my spine. ^^ Hehe, my first K-Pop crush, how silly is that. xD OH, which reminds me- last night, Mark was up late, too! We had a good conversation and he said he'll miss me when I leave. ._. But, it's okay, 'cause we'll catch up. :D It's amazing what kind of friendships I've formed over the last year. I'm glad to have met Mark. He's amazing. My favourite Year 9, like duh. <3 But yeah- Mark questioned me as to who was in my d/p, and I said "Minhwan," and he's like, "OH, I was thinking- what happened to Soochong?!" Hahah. xD It's kind of funny, but Mark used to tease me about Minhwan and he didn't even really know anything about him. It was just plastered on my MySpace. HAHA. -_-

"Why those people are saying love is blind?" I can hardly understand Micky, anymore. "I love you when I saw you." xD Oh, the memories!

Off the Tongue.

2009-01-06T15:40:04Z

Oh gosh, Kevin and I have been talking for the past hour. I didn't think we'd talk again, after our first conversation- but he messaged me! Which was a relief, since I didn't want to bother him. o_o Now I'm just talking like a nutcase! xD I'm just going to type in here, now-and-then, so that I have something to do... I don't want to be spitting out more random things to him... Or AT him? xD He must think I'm nuts! I haven't seen Kevin in yeaaaaars! And I found him on FaceBook last month and started messaging him. HAHA. I'm such a random, gosh. >_> But, in my memory, he was a relative I saw quite often..

, 민환&cyndi says (2:05 AM):

Oh, this might seem really random, but are you left-handed? >_>

kevin [ ALL HOPE IS GONE ] says (2:06 AM):

yeh im left handed

, 민환&cyndi says (2:06 AM):

ROFL, WTH. HAHA. Oh maaan.

This must seem plain weird, now.

But I remember you being "similar" to me- so I took at stab at the left-handedness thing. xD

HAHA! I feel sorry for him. :) I'm so weird. ._. But, I'm glad, though- he actually remembers how I'm related to him. Honestly, sometimes I pretend to forget some things, just so my intense memory isn't showcasing... Hahah, I bet Soochong'd call me a "freak." ._. He seems to use that word so much! -_- But, really, I can't believe that stuck in my mind. I guess- it was something that was really important to me- and Rovinna and Jessie even exclaimed about me being left-handed. Actually, Jessie told me that she used to be left-handed, but she was forced to use her right-hand, and so, she lost the ability to write with her left. :( This world is so biased. T_T It all just reminds me that the planets orbit around the sun- not me. xD Hehe.

I was actually quite tired, before- it's been a long day- but since I got the chance to talk with Kevin, I thought I may as well! It's like how yesterday I stayed up talking with Sue. xD There's really been quite a few good conversations, out there- and it's been awesome. For a period of time, I didn't really find any stimulating conversation on MSN. Talking with Sue's been really, really- well, if it weren't so late, I'd be able to insert a word here... She makes me think- about things I've experienced, things I've never thought about and things I have decided on, but looking at them in different ways.

As for Kevin- it's just good to catch up with him. He's about- one and a half year's older than me- but two years in schooling. I think he'll be able to give me an insight into the uni life. xD Hahah, it's always reassuring to talk with older people within the same age group; people who have been through the hardships of a teenage life; the hardships of VCE. I'm about to experience it all, myself... Let's see how I handle it, hey? :D

I should really be sleeping. There's so many things I've yet to blog about- and yeah, I STILL haven't finished my dedications. -_- I'm going to be quite busy within the next week- especially before Tuesday... And defnitely ON Tuesday. I hope I still find the time to leave my "long-winded" blogs! Perhaps you'll find the time to read them and drop me a comment? :D I found that I had silent readers... T_T Hahaha, oh well, it's all okay! I haven't been commenting much on others' blogs- except loversflyinfree . xD Keke. But even then, I haven't been saying too much. ._. Thanks for the comments back, though. :D :D <3

Until we next meet- take care and all the best. ^^

02:46 edit - I figured I'd add a little more since it just happened and well- there's been quite a few funny moments. xD But, just, wow. xD I feel so weird, in comparison to Kevin. I think I'm like that with everyone I "meet," though. I seem to spit out so much random stuff just to avoid awkward silences. But I'll only do that if I intend to get to know the person. I may as well get to know my family, right? xD Hahah, I can be quite selective, I guess... It's necessary, at times- but perhaps I'm filtering out potential friends; and stimulating conversations? :( We'll see how I handle it. ><

kevin [ ALL HOPE IS GONE ] says (2:43 AM):

so what do you do at this hour anyway O.o

, 민환&cyndi says (2:43 AM):

...

Blogging. o_o

, 민환&cyndi says (2:44 AM):

I'm an intense writer. xD

kevin [ ALL HOPE IS GONE ] says (2:44 AM):

LOL

cool

, 민환&cyndi says (2:44 AM):

ROFL, shut up and go back to your games. T_T

kevin [ ALL HOPE IS GONE ] says (2:44 AM):

hahaha

, 민환&cyndi says (2:44 AM):

HAHA. T__T

Miss you.

2009-01-06T12:49:48Z

I don't want to miss out on blogging, today! NUUU! I only got home an hour ago! T_T

Floating on Air.

2009-01-05T12:01:31Z

Hmm, I think I've kept myself from blogging for quite a few hours, now! Is that some achievement? xD If there's one thing about me that I should let you know- it's that, I blog when I'm happy. So, in summary, the past day hasn't been top notch! Actually, it's been quite depressing. But I don't want to delve too far into it. All I can say is things are a bit patchy, right now and I just hope that it all pans out, for the best. One good thing about today is- Benny arrived back home. :D I missed him, so much. <3 I'm so glad he's back! I don't even know when I'll next see him. >< It feels like so long since I've caught up with anyone, besides family. If there's one thing I need to keep in mind- it's that I need to see Helena, very, very soon 'cause she's my miracle and I love her, much so. T^T <3

Right now, though, I'm quite busy, so I'll have to update, tomorrow! I don't intend on staying up any later, and so- I'll be off. Until then, I hope you'll all stay healthy and well. :D Take care and I'll talk with you, soon. <3

Keep It Going.

2009-01-03T15:48:19Z

Gosh, it's late. Why I'm still up? I just feel like catching up on a few things. The inner fangirl is most rapid at night? o_o I have no idea. I just had this urge to check out the FT Island website and it's changed a LOT since they first debuted. I mean, sure, it's been nearly two years, but I really did put my heart and soul into them, before they debuted and a few months after... Once VCE hit me- it was BAM, no more time for FT. It's like they've been forgotten for a while.

The site's a lot neater, now, in my opinion. And I always find these little coincidences. Okay, call me crazy but I've been doing the unthinkable and have been relating Minhwan back to Soochong. Perhaps it has always been this way- but with all this "Colourful Sensibility" promoting, the boys each get assigned a colour. Now, one thing about Soochong is- he HATES purple, and his favourite colour is orange. The cover of "Colourful Sensibility" was purple- but Minhwan's theme colour seems to be ORANGE. I mentioned this to Soochong the other day and he was like, "right, you go think that." xD <3 BUT REALLY, EVEN MINHWAN'S PROFILE IS ORANGE. x_x HAHA, oh gosh... I should never stay up this late, again!

One relief is- after checking their schedule, I don't see much to be worried about. There's hardly anything, actually. I don't know if they're just slow on updating or I can really believe that HONGKI is resting. Actually, ALL of them need to rest. But, Hongki the most. Really, I think that the most recent performance has stirred up the media- fans, and anti-fans. It must really be a tough time for FT, right now. T_T But, the puri's will always be by your side. :D

"If I ever lose the power to fly, then your love takes me high."
The primadonnas will always be true, to you. :)

In the meantime, I think it's stated on my schedule that I should be sleeping! So, I'll be hopping to it. :D Hehe. ^^ Lately I've been having a couple of comment rallies, which have been great! But honestly, I've been confusing myself as to which comments I've replied to! -_- If I suddenly stop replying for no apparent reason- well, you know why. xD Hahaha. -_-

Seeing as this post is mostly about FT Island and sleeping, I'll save the rest of my ramblings for tomorrow morning... Once I find out what has happened to my budgie. Actually, I'll just give you a small update, while I'm here... Right now- I don't know where he is. Hopefully a cat hasn't gotten to him. Dad says he'll come home. Dad also said that he knew him well, and that him and the budgie are friends. -_- But dad said he's not his best friend?! -_- Okay, dad's weird, but wow, I just got a sense of deja vu. Have I typed that before? o_o I bet dad's said something just as weird and I've blogged about it, just, wow. -_- I'm not all that worried, even though he's like my baby. D: Soochong heard me over the phone, freaking out about how he was bleeding and how I felt so helpless. T_T It was so scary, zomg. D: So much has happened! But, these updates belong to another day. Until we next meet, please take care!

Innocent Youth.

2009-01-03T14:06:50Z

As it gets further into 2009, I seem to be getting busier and busier! Although I don't realise it, I've gone out the past two days and also had visitors! But, it's all family- which isn't a bad thing. Really, when the new year rolls in- it's all I look forward to. No, it's not the money-filled red pockets, it's my family. :D Apparently, Shandi kept asking where I was on Thursday night! >< I'm sorry, dear. I'm sorry I couldn't spazz about 2pm with you. ._. I wish I could say more, but it doesn't feel like something I can blog about. -_- I guess it's why I went on hiatus unexpectedly. Things DID go a little down hill and I just didn't feel comfortable about stating it to the world. But, things have really picked up as of late, and I can only imagine that 2009 holds more unexpected delights. :)

I had hoped to squeeze in a blog before it hit 12am, but I've just been so busy! o_o And biggest mistake EVER was leaving my computer on 'cause I came back to a whole bunch of offline contacts and merry wishes for a "happy new year." ._. I'M SORRY, EVERYONE! T_T Earlier in the day, I was talking with Kevin, until he started playing games, so on and so forth. He's so- lazy... Hahah! Oh, what I found interesting was- HE BRUSHED HIS TEETH AFTER BREAKFAST! I mean, I know a lot of people do that but I still find it EXTREMELY peculiar! I guess everyone has their own way, but REALLY, he's like, my cousin! It's a small difference but to me it's LIFE CHANGING because it determines how your morning runs, everyday. xD Hahah, yes, I like taking it to the extreme. xD

Today, Emily's family visited Linnie's house- so Linnie invited me over. :D Well, not exactly- I kind of just went back to their place, naturally. The three of us met up at a local primary school and just gave ourselves a tour. Oh my, Linnie and I seem to have the funniest conversations. I told Wendy about them when I got home and Wendy laughed a lot. :D Hehe, now, it kind of went like this...

Linnie: Hmm, so, let's go to the shops, now!
Cyndi: Uhh, you told me we weren't going. I didn't bring my wallet.
Emily: Oh, I don't have mine, either.
Linnie: Ohh, ohh I get it- just making me spend MY money, oh well, it's alright!
Cyndi: But it's all uphill...
Linnie: That's okay! When we come home it'll be downhill!
Cyndi: You'll be too tired to even enter shops.
Linnie: But I want to walk! When we're in a group, I really feel... What's that word?
Cyndi: Motivated?
Linnie: Yeah, I feel motivated, but when I'm alone... Bleh. I like groups, unless it's an assignment, then FORGET IT.
Cyndi: Okay, then thnk of this an assignment and let's go.
Linnie: OKAY!
Cyndi: ... Where are you going?
Linnie: To the shops?
Cyndi: You didn't get me... Did you? I said "let's go," as in, NOT to the shops.
Linnie: Oh, hahaha, but I feel so pumped, right now! I feel your energy!
Cyndi: My energy?
Linnie: Yeah! It... Feels positive... I know when you feel negative!
Cyndi: ...
Linnie: See! Right now, you're positive, but you're also like, "what the heck?"
Cyndi: Uh huh...

Although it's not necessarily in the right order- the conversation kind of went like that, and hahaha, it was just so funny. xD There were bits I skipped, but just, hehe, Linnie and I get along pretty well, otherwise. xD It's all good. I just couldn't be bothered going to the shops, 'cause then it'd be really pointless for me to meet them at the primary school- as I'd be going "backwards." Pointless walking! It's all coming from a lazy person's point of view. xD The one thing I can't get lazy with is... BLOGGING! I must finish this. >< We talked a lot, today, and Linnie and I have made plans for the next few days. x_x I really am going to be busier and busier. I STILL NEED TO SEE MY MASTER, SUZANNE! x_x

Whatever the case, Linnie said she was even tired walking home. -_- Silly girl. It was really close by, as well, whereas the shops were further. When I arrived, aunty was surprised to see me- and the rest of the family, as well... Seeing as I was there YESTERDAY and Emily's family's visiting me TOMORROW. o_o I'm attached to my family? This must sound really confusing for everyone- but... As selfish as this sounds, as long as I know what I'm on about, when I reflect. xD Hahah. If you're curious, I can explain. xD My family is huge, but. x_x

Mendes was playing Wii, and he was quite happy to see me! Hehe. :D I was going to go play table tennis, and then he got all excited and followed me, along with Linnie and Em. He was really well-behaved, today! Yesterday he threw so many tantrums and he cried so hard. x_x But, today, as long as someone was sitting down with him, he was well-behaved and waited until I told him it was his turn to play. <3 He's so adorable! :D He usually listens to what I say, UNLESS, Melvyn's there. HE'S SO NAUGHTY IN FRONT OF MELVYN, MY GOSH. He sees Melvyn, glares at him and calls him "stupid" and tells him to "shut up." -_- Just, wow. -_- But I'll elaborate on that a little later.

The table tennis games were pretty intense. ;) Emily and I were pretty well matched, and then Linnie would get scared any time she versed me. Okay, the age difference is... Linnie's 19, I'm 17 and Emily's 14. Or well- it should be around there. xD I just think to myself, Emily's Tingting's age but I don't feel it. Emily always seems like a young child to me- although she's grown up so much! Well, duh. I've grown up too. She'll always be my little cousin, but. xD It's such an interesting mindset. The games were pretty good, all the same- but I was worried Mendes would start to get bored, so I took him outside. He was so happy, and he wanted me to carry him! I spun him around and ran with him in my arms and his laughing was so genuine and adorable. <3 I loved it. :D He played with me a lot and he said that he really liked me. :D

Downside is, he doesn't know my English name, which is okay. xD He always refers to me as "Sunny," and nothing else. It's really adorable. :D 'Cause when Linnie calls me by my English name, he refuses to call me it. xD He doesn't even want anything about my surname, either. xD Hehe. He's so stubborn, but I guess I can't resist spoiling him. ._. Admittedly, I can't put up with him ALL the time, though. But he is getting me thinking- do I want to be a teacher? Later in the night, I was reading with him. And I asked Linnie if he had any books- and I was thinking stories- but aunty pulled out "my first numbers/colours/words" and those kinds of learning materials. >< I read those to him and he repeated me as I guided my fingers along the words. It was really an interesting experience! I was trying to teach him how to write as well, but he said he couldn't. xD It's so funny- when you ask him to try something, he just says he can't. One thing about Mendes is- if he's not familiar with it- he's afraid of trying. That'll be one tough thing, whilst growing up! Especially 'cause he's going to kindy, next year! He's so excited. I'm excited, too. o_o Oddly enough...

Wow, I spent about eight or so hours at their place, tonight. Emily's family left around 6:30pm and I ended up staying for dinner. Soochong called me! <3 Hehe, I was playing with Mendes at the time. Just a little bit before, I played him a song on keyboard, but he kept smashing the keys as if they were drums. ._. He REALLY likes drums. I think it's another reason as to why I've taken such a liking to him... CHOI MINHWAN, PERHAPS? ;) My cousin is going to grow up to be like him. :D Yeuh, baby! I showed Mendes videos of Minhwan drumming and he loved it. HAHA.

After the keybaord playing, we sat down on the floor and recorded a video, together. After that, we took pictures and I taught him how to use my phone. He really liked it. :D He took photos of himself, then, his shoe, him and me, together- him and Linnie, together and then the COUCH! HAHA! I just put away my phone- 'cause I was running out of space and then, MR. SOOCHONG CALLED. :D Hahah, yes, I'm returning back to this point 'cause it was SO FUNNY! Mendes would speak in Hakka and of course Soochong couldn't understand. xD SOOCHONG WAS TRYING TO TEACH MENDES HOW TO SAY HIS NAME AND HAHA, THAT WAS A COMPLETE MESS! Mendes kept saying "what?" in Hakka 'cause he didn't understand. :x And then I took the phone and Soochong explained. xD And then Mendes goes, "WHATCHONG?" HAHAHAHAHA, I LAUGHED SO HARD! xD It was awesome. Then I told Mendes that that's his name and Mendes goes, "OHHHHH, THAT'S YOUR NAME, I SEE!" BUT HE SAID THAT IN HAKKA, SO SOOCHONG DIDN'T UNDERSTAND. xD Oh man, awesome phone call... It's so fun, but, getting Mendes to talk with Soochong. :) It isn't the first time... We did this in April, too. HAHAH, but I can't say much more about that. xD Just, memories of the days before we started dating and all that we had to keep from the public. :P

Wow, tonight just flew by so quickly. I kept Mendes company while aunty Jalita, uncle Alex and Linnie were preparing dinner. I called Melvyn down to play table tennis but that didn't work out so well, as I said- Mendes doesn't listen to me in front of Melvyn. ._. He's so naughty, honestly. :x He likes Melvyn, but he also likes to tell him off. He's like, "you're so ANNOYING!" HAHA, his English is pure awesome. <3 He's so adorable. :D And he's actually inspired an idea in me... I just hope I can carry it through. It'll be for my media project... But after thinking about it- IT JUST REMINDED ME OF SHAUN'S A LITTLE. -_______- I guess I really idolise Shaun, after all. I'll keep thinking and developing the thought but yeah, Mendes is my beeg ball of inspiration. <3

There's still much that I have to update on. -_- Like, my BUDGIE for example, 'cause of recent happenings with him... But in the meantime, I'm going to try and get some more chores done. I got home around 10pm, tonight and I really haven't had much time to do anything. WENDY just sat in her room all afternoon and did not lift a finger! I folded the clothes earlier, and I'll be washing the dishes, later! Even before I left I put out clothes and such. Wendy had to go to work today, but. :/ So I guess it's only fair... :/ EEK, I was supposed to go to sleep a while ago. -_- I didn't expect to get home so late. D: ALRIGHT, in the meantime, I'll do my chores and I'll get back to blogging a little later. :)

Unable To See.

2009-01-03T03:23:40Z

After leaving the internet early, last night, I still didn't fall asleep until 1am... I was so tired, and yet, I just couldn't bring myself to sleep! Perhaps this is something that needs to happen gradually. I'll try and go to sleep earlier, each night... Which will be extremely easy since Soochong's not around, hehe. BUT I STILL DREAM ABOUT HIM. ._. I slept for so long, last night. I didn't get out of bed until AFTER 12PM! I really slept for ages. ._. I still feel drained, but... I feel really warm- and kind of unwell. >< I'm not sure what I should do.

This afternoon has been quite eventful thus far. My budgie, my dearest budgie- HAS FLOWN AWAY! -_- Dad took him out of the avery to see if he still responded to the commands we taught him, but he just flew off, instead. D: However, he's only in the neighbour's trees, which is a relief. ._. He's really happy, but. He's been singing ever since he got out. See, now, what happened was, three weeks ago, MUM banished him from being a part of the family... So he had to stay in the avery, outside. I think this is partly the reason why I stopped blogging. -_- Mum took away my pride and joy! HAHA. -_-

Whatever the case, he's all good and well- just he's a bit too far to reach and he keeps turning away from us when we DO try to get him. He's a naughty little bird, but hopefully he comes home soon, 'cause my parents are about to go out- for like, the fourth time this week?! -_- They're going to go buy dancing shoes- and yes, my parents dance- they've been into ballroom dancing for a couple of years, now. :) Hehe. ^^ After that trip, they'll be going to a friend's house for a BBQ. o_o And tomorrow they're going out, as well! Hopefully my parents let me host radio on Tuesdays... I'll have to vow never to go to the city all year, but. :x I'm prepared to accept that responsibility. :D

Hmm, it feels like there's a lot that I should blog about. o_o Currently, I've been catching up with Kevin, over MSN. I haven't talked to him much in the past couple of weeks and before that, I hadn't seen him in YEARS! ._. It feels good to find my family over FaceBook. :D I don't even remember HOW I found him- and if I were to retrace- I don't think I'd be able to. xD Hehe.

But, right now- I still feel a little unwell... My head feels heavy- but I don't want to lie down. I've slept too much, or something. >< My eyes feel so alert, but my brain is having trouble processing everything. >< Wendy and I will have to fend for ourselves, tonight... My parents are just about to leave me. T_T I'm such a poor child. HAHA.

In Your Hands.

2009-01-02T11:39:52Z

Okay, I haven't felt this tired, this early, in ages! I'm going to take advantage of it. I'll be going to sleep in a little while- and by that- I DO NOT mean a few more hours, I promise. I'm going to try and get as much sleep as possible, from now on- and maximise the use of the hours in my day. :) Staying up is only fun when you have someone to converse with. Right now- it's not quite worth it, being 2009- I really have to get my butt moving. I can't recall what time dad got off the phone, or what time I even left the computer... All I know is- I crawled over to Wendy's room and had a tiny nap on her bed! >< I think this signifies that I'm tired as heck. >< My brain's gone all fuzzy and I can't think straight... I just hope that I can find some sort of way to communicate with Soochong, later. >< I don't think we'll talk for the next few days. But that's okay- I have a lot of work to do, myself! I'll get back to blogging on that- though... I think I'll spend time blogging once I'm actually done with what I'm busy with. xD

It is the beginning of a new year- time to kick changes into gear... Now, there's one thing that I've not yet done which I had hoped to, coming into this year- and that is to FINISH my dedications. I feel as if there's so many people to mention- I've only done my family, best friends and boyfriend. I haven't even hit my "dongsaeng" and my "guidance." There's so many people left to thank, so when my mind is clear enough, I hope to say a few more words. In the meantime, I hope you're all well. My head's throbbing- I think. I can't even think clearly enough to tell. ._. I think this is a night, for me. :x I'll get back to you guys in the morning? Yes. I think that would be most suitable. ><

Please.

2009-01-02T10:15:02Z

Phew, that's another day down for the year! How many more to go? Hehe, has everyone been enjoying 2009 so far? Yesterday I managed to scrap up FIVE entries, and today, it's already 8:48pm and I'm only typing up my first! Talk about a huge difference. Better yet is if I didn't even blog, today. xD BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT THAT CAN'T HAPPEN. xD Hehe. ^^ WELL, where do I start... Last night, Soochong called me, so we stayed up 'till late. ._. I guess we got carried away- and well- after sleeping late, consequently it led to waking late. ._. Now, being the second day of a brand new year, our family tends to have visitors in the morning... Actually, this year has begun quite weirdly for me because yesterday, I only saw mum, dad and Wendy- no one else... Usually we have an entire family gathering- but I'll elborate on that a little later.

Gosh, I'm actually quite tired at the moment and I feel so incoherant. T_T

Although I blogged five times, yesterday, I don't even feel like I've covered evertthing! Yesterday was quite quiet, and today even- we only had one set of visitors. Friends from my parents' dancing club came by- just to have a chat and they teased me, because I just woke up, when they arrived. NOW, they entered our front door around 11:30am, so you can imagine WHY I was teased. >< It was so late, already! I shalled in my room for fourty-five minutes by getting changed and texting Soochong... Eventually I went out to "face the music," and yeah- I just said "hello" and went back to my room. xD Those two always tease me, so. ><

After a bit of texting, Soochong kept falling asleep, so he decided to call me, to keep himself awake! We talked for quiet a while; and in during that time, the couple left and I bid them farewell. It didn't feel like we talked that long- but I'm sure we hit a good hour, or so until he had to go. I started reading "Inheritence," and I was hugging Dumpling. Mum questioned me as to where he came from, but I didn't answer. :x I got bored quite quickly and grabbed a bite to eat.

The next two hours became a blur, as I was on Wendy's computer. My parents and I were waiting for Wendy to come home so that we could go to Linnie's house. Eventually, around 3:40pm, Wendy arrived home and my father, mother and I drove up to Linnie's place. Melvyn, Mendes and I started off by playing Wii Sports (Bowling), where MENDES was King of everything. Mendes is four years old, mind you. He's stubborn and VERY naughty, in my opinion. He'll scream if he doesn't get his way. When it was Melvyn's turn to bowl, Mendes wanted the remote and he just WOULDN'T let Melvyn play properly... He even pinched Melvyn to get the remote off him. -_- After a while, he started become a bad sport and he would say "har har" when Melvyn and I didn't get strikes/spares. -_-

Melvyn and I eventually got bored... Oh wait- we didn't start off with Wii Sports, we started off playing TABLE TENNIS, but Mendes wouldn't let Melvyn and I have a proper game, so we tried to distract him with the Wii. After the Wii, though, we started to get bored, so we went back to table tennis- to see if we could get in a PROPER game. Mendes STILL wouldn't let it happen and he wouldn't let ANYONE take him away from the table. It's actually quite adorable how he sticks to Melvyn, all the time, but yeah, Melvyn wanted to have a match with me.

After kicking and screaming, Mendes eventually gave in to being taken by his mum. Melvyn said that he had to be disciplined, or else he'll grow up to be a naughty child. In my opinion, he's pretty naughty, already. He literally SCREAMED at Melvyn and I when we didn't let him be a part of our game and he started banging on the floor with the bats. It was really a scary sight for me- but Melvyn just said to shrug it off, or else he'll keep doing it. :x Which is quite true, I guess... Whatever the case, Melvyn and I got to have our match. :D

He must've been distracted by conversation, or something, 'cause I completely owned him for a while. The score was 9 to 1, and then as time went on, he managed to catch up, surpass and win the match. -_- I was going so well! T_T AND NO, he didn't start off easy on me! We both hadn't played in a while, but dude, he's the one with the equipment. xD After that- I became too lazy for another game- and I tried holding the bat in different ways. I even played with my right-hand and did pretty darn well. :D Melvyn didn't even notice. SO- either I'm pretty good with my right-hand, or just really sucky, normally. xD Hehe. ^^

Mendes had calmed down and sat by the table side, watching us play... Melvyn went for a break and I decided to get a drink. After that, I talked a bit with Linnie, and watched her play Wii Sports until she gave me a turn. xD It was good to talk; it feels like I missed out on a lot, last night. I heard a bit from Melvyn and a bit from Linnie. I really wish I could've been there.

So, last night, there was a gathering at our grandparents' house, but due to certain reasons, we found ourselves not attending. Shandi was surprised, and messaged me when she got home, last night. It made it easier, though. xD It was good to relax, although the day had been PRETTY easy on me, already. ^^ Hehe. :D Oh well, there's always next time! :) Right now though, dad's on the phone and he's LOUD AS! I'm losing my train of thought every two minutes... My brain feels drained, and so, I think I'll stop here, for now. As I said, this blog feels rather incoherant... Mum said to start writing again when he's done. -_- Hmm.

Oh, and does anyone want to go up to the city with me, tomorrow? I think I may have some business to attend to. :)

Glass Window.

2009-01-01T09:27:47Z

Take the first sentence (or two) from the first post of each month of 2008. That's your year in review. - Taken from loversflyinfree !

Now, the trouble with that is, I've used various blogs over the year. Some of you may remember my ramblings being located at cynddong or cynchunsa, at Xanga. I've also had a secret blog, in between- which I kept from most people. ._. But! I feel as if this will be an extremely interesting thing to do- so I'm going to scavanage until I get an extract of each month of the year. OH, but now that I think about it, I may not have blogged in December. Hmm. ><

JANUARY -

(2007 dedications)

you kids made my year <3

FEBRUARY -
I had been thinking about it since Year 8/9... Do I want to be an SRC representitive? :O Would you vote for me if I went for it? YOU BETTER. T.T

MARCH -
TO BEGIN THIS... Tags tomorrow. OKAY? Okay. :) I haven't blogged in AGESS... And ages for me is like, since last Wednesday. xD Hahaha... Let's see... I'LL REPLY TO THE COMMENTS, SOON. That is, for both MySpace and LiveJournal. :) Oh, you guys probably don't care. BAAHAH, oh well. HI GUYSSS!

APRIL -
This blog isn't going to get anywhere- because... Hahaha. SECRET! Anyways. Yeah, I feel like blogging, really bad. >:[ I've missed so many days, now... It's been a week since I went to Thanh's house and I still haven't found the time to write about it. And, TUESDAY, as well... When Maggie and I went studying. Now, basically, my blogs are out of order. Hahah. T-T It's a shame, really... But, in the end... Just as long as I have this compliation of my memories... I will be happy. :)

MAY -
I'll write this up, tomorrow. All you need to know right now is, I'm kind of confident in myself... But, even still, I have slight doubt. -_-

JUNE -
Yesterday was one of the best nights of my life! Hahah, well, yeah, it was pretty fun. I love Maggie, Daniel and Andii. :D

JULY -
Today was [s]a good[/s] TOO GOOD of a day. <3

AUGUST -
Today, I got one of the biggest boosts of reassurance, but I was too blinded by ill thoughts to take the impact of them. Daniel told me he'd never leave me; that, he'd always be here...

SEPTEMBER -
So, when was the last time I updated? I didn't even keep up to date with my holiday program, posted here. Honestly, things have just gotten a lot busier. Now that I work on both radio AND TV, a lot has been added to my plate. Each week is passing by quicker, and quicker! I always look forward to Tuesdays... Not only is it the day I get to host on radio and feature on TV, but it is also the day of the week where I see Maggie! :D Best friends, forever. ^^

OCTOBER -
I haven't blogged in a long time. Life has been well; a couple of downs, but many ups. These holidays have been too relaxing, though. I always have the intentions of working hard, but I never get around to it...

NOVEMBER -
So, I haven't updated in a few days... How's everyone been? I've been stalking my xanga subscriptions- so I know about Benny, Charmaine, Thanho and Kimu, but that's basically about it! It seems that our lives all revolve around exams, now-a-days, and it sucks muchly. I kind of like studying, though...

DECEMBER -

Okay, I'm quite annoyed, right now... I wanted to sleep early, tonight, but spambots are attacking my forum, again, so I had to reset up my awesome idea from July, this year. ._.

Hehe, I actually managed to find a post from every month! I really do stay updated, hey? Thing is- this spanned over five blogs. -_- Hahah, I really should just stick to the same one, honestly! -_- I don't know why I've moved so much, but my place is here, now. It's really such a bother to look through everywhere. xD Hehe. Not that I would do this kind of thing all that often, anyways. xD Hehe, what is this- my FIFTH post, for today? :D 2009 seems to be promising. xD